In life, it is a prerequisite to learn from experienced stories and successful people. This is usually essential in paving the way for a brighter future for the inexperienced younger ones.

Hence, giving them more insights on what they will experience in the near future if the needfuls are overlooked.

However, Gail on her Twitter handle has narrated how her adulthood has become a lesson to her despite being superbly brilliant and intelligent during her days as a teenager in her class.

In her words:

Adulthood taught me that I am not special. I grew up receiving praises for my intelligence and brilliance from everybody . I went for competitions , won an ‘ overall best ‘ award in a public secondary school that had over 100 of us in a class .

A lot was expected of me and as an intelligent child / teenager who loved to read , everyone simply figured that I’d do great as an adult . I believed the same too . All I had to do was go to school and things would fall in place for me . Being unable to attend a university was life’s first lesson . 

I blamed all of my failures on that fact . If I had gone to school I’d be doing better  If I had a degree I’d not be at this point .  I was special after all , I was the intelligent kid , things were supposed to align for me Or so I thought .

Years after that , I had to move on . I couldn’t continue bemoaning my fate . Couldn’t keep blaming everything on the fact that I didn’t go to school . But without it , I had nothing else to blame . I could not accept the fact that I just wasn’t special , it had to be something . 

But there was nothing. Maybe that was where it all started . The anxiety , the self doubt , the fear of being a fraud , the knowledge that I’d fail no matter what I did.

As the intelligent kid whom everyone had high hopes for , I could not confess to anyone that I was sinking . 

That I was a mess financially . That I did not know what path I was supposed to take in life . That I knew everything but I knew nothing . I was supposed to know these things , I was supposed to have my self  figured out so asking for guidance was out of it . I still don’t .

And now I panic everyday more than I used to . I panic because everyone else has got their lives figured out .

Even those who are struggling today at least know what they want to do , where they want to go . I have come to realize that I am more productive when attached to someone or something . I make them or it my personality . In someone else’s personality , I feel like a real person , I’m more secure . 

Relationships are hard for me to walk away from because walking away means losing whatever personality I had . And that means feeling naked . It means asking myself over and again ” Who am I ? ” 

So yeah . It has been difficult acknowledging that being intelligent does not equal success in life . And that I might never be successful like I’d have hoped to be . But if I procreate , I pray with everything in me , that I am able to give them a good head start in life .

I hope I am able to teach them that , they’re good enough and that they’re more than the things that they know . I hope I never make them feel like they have to figure out their way in life themselves even when they don’t know how to.

I hope I give them an environment that shows them they can be their own person and be confident without having to be attached to someone or something else .

I hope I love them so fiercely that they know there’s always a place in my space for them when they make mistakes in life and need to start over . I hope they do not inherit this mental disease . 

To everyone who knows who they are and what they are , you’re my inspiration and I hope that all your hardwork pays off .